I'm pumped. Adrenaline is gloriously surging thanks to wild spazzing from concert fancams on my pseudo-Monday night. It's one of my least favorite curse called regret. Once again, I missed an event I swore I wouldn't. And once again, I suffer.
During the first years of my fangirling, I scoffed at those so-called "fans" who can never attend their idols' concerts. I thought that there will always be excuses for those with fleeting minds, weak hearts and silly passions. True devotion will find its way. Or make a way, whichever comes quicker.
Now, I still hold on to that belief. I see myself as a lacking fan who has now twice decided to forego the anniversary concert. My circumstances are not much different but I find more excuses somehow. My will has definitely seen better days. And I regret it. So very much.
Hoarse from screaming (out loud and in my head)... and well, just sad. That's me on a Tuesday. I could have been a TON happier if I came to to concert. But that is happiness I stupidly chose to forego~
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